If you were reading previously you will see a change in names. Yes I changed them to protect annonimity. My husband's name is now Matthew. :)

I bought a doppler. I was one of those women who sat back and said I can't believe how people obsess and now I went ahead and bought one. I picked up the mail yeaterday morning and there is was. I was estatic. So when I got to work I closed my door, sat on the floor behind my desk and preceeded to fold down the elastic (yup, elastic) on my pants. I grabbed the gel and it came out so fast fast I got it all over my black pants and shirt. Do you know it dried like? I bet you do!

I finally got some on my belly. Then I tried to hold the base in one hand, the probe in the other along with the elastic to my pants so it didn't fold up and get covered in gel again and I had my shirt in my teeth. I bet I was a site. I finally got the probe to touch my belly and I successfully.... found my own heartbeat. I gave up. It was too awkward and I was already trying to make excuses to coworkers why I was groping my boobs in public.

So I managed to wait till I got home where I could lie down and do it properly. At first I heard this swoosh noise (you know, the one you hear on TV when they do an ultrasound on a woman supposedly like 6 weeks pregnant yet on the screen the baby is full sized and looking like it is ready to come out) but after feeling my pulse I realized that was me. I kept feeling around and was ready to give up when I heard this cloppit clop noise coming in AT THE SAME TIME as my swoosh. I found the heart beat!!! It was beautiful.

So I put the doppler away and had a fantastic evening knowing my baby was alive and safe. Yea right. I did put it away however I pulled it back every hour to test again.

When I first started trying to find it, I must have been pushing really hard because the areas I was searching are feeling really bruised today. I can barely touch them. I will have to go gentler tonight when I search for it. :)

I have my doc appoinment tomorrow for the internal. He is going to try the doppler. I am almost wishing he has trouble finding it so he sends me for an u/s. But then again my OB's office should be calling with an appointment soon and I can just beg them.