For the past 35 weeks I have been obsessing about the pains and tribulations of pregnancy, but I really didn't think about the end result. I know that sounds stupid, I know a baby comes out of me - but I never conteplated the actual 'raising the baby' part.
I am scared beyond my wildest nightmares about childbirth, but I think I might be more afraid about what comes after. I have been around children all my life, I have babysat newborns for weekends, I know what to do in situations, but I am scared that it will be all different.
Breast feeding will obviously be new. What if it doesn't work? I want so desperately for it to work. What if my baby has colic? I don't have a lot of patience. I love my sleep, how am I going to do feedings every couple hours? DH tries but he still needs guidence from me, what if he does something wrong? Will I know how to properly wrap her so she is not too hot or too cold? Will I drop her?
These are verging on panic and I don't like it. As much as I want her out, I don't want to go through childbirth and I dont' want to be responsible for another human being. I know we made the right choice in becoming parents, so why does it have to be so darn scary?
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2 comments:
The fact that you're scared just goes to show how wonderful a mother you are going to be... it would be more concerning if you weren't nervous because then that would mean you didn't care!
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Jenn, just a good sign that you will be a great mommy!! It's time to start worrying and you will never stop! Good luck. My DD had her first at 36.4 weeks so those pains and feelings could easily mean you maybe meeting her sooner than you think.
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