Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Another day, another day closer

I have been asked if this baby makes everything better. I assume this means does it take away the heartache of losing the first. The answer is no. There is no band-aid that will ever fix that hole in my heart. I still mourn my angel. I still mourn the 4 years of my life I lost while consumed with trying to conceive. I will forever be cautious and I will never take a pregnancy for granted.

I know when I hold my baby, my thoughts of my angel may get farther and farther apart, but they will always be there.

I was told that when miscarriages happen, the baby is not ready and when he/she is, they will come back. Now knowing this one is a girl, I have to say I am a bit curious whether this is my angel baby just ready this time. I guess we will never know.

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