Nothing bad - I am still pregnant. In fact, that is it. On Friday I uttered the words I never thought I would "I am so sick of being pregnant." I was ashamed and shocked and then of course I started crying.
The last couple weeks have been rough. I have severe back pain to the point where I can't even walk anymore without crying. Nothing seems to resolve it either. It is my midback and stretches to my ribs. I cannot express to you what it feels like. Matt gets sick of rubbing my back and I am sick of trying to explain to him it is not a relaxing thing, it is a necessity.
My heartburn has peaked. Hopefully when baby drops this will taper a bit but for now I am loving the people over at the Zantac company.
The swelling continues to be a problem and is now accompanied by cramping and shortness of breath when I try to exercise. Compbine all those and you will know why I am at 36 pounds at 32 weeks. Yep, that's right, not a typo. Crap.
And the peeing. I now pee 8 times a night. I am not joking. She is pusing on my bladder so much that I barely have a sip of water and I need to pee. I have been trying to sleep in the master bedroom because there is abathroom attached but it has been so freaking hot I prefere to be two levels down in the basement where there is a 10C difference. Unfortunately the closest bathroom is on the main floor so that means climbing the stairs 8 times a night. It sucks.
Lastly - the mommy marks. I knew they were coming. I was happy they held off till now but still sad to see the beginnings of some tiny little stretch marks. They are on my sides, basically along the underwhere line heading down that general region. Still hard to see but by the end they will be strong. I hope they stay int hat general region though, that I can hadle.
I know it will be all worth it and I love this baby more than life itself, but I can't help but cry pretty much every day. I am sick of not feeling like myself. It sucked enough I missed the summer and now when I am getting a bit more comfty temp wise, the rest of me is giving out. I am even looking forward to the labour now because it means this will soon be over.
I just keep telling myself that in 8 weeks I will know why I did this. They just can't go by fast enough.
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LOL on the Mommy marks Jenn! :P I knew you wouldn't be spared! They fade quickly and most likely you won't get them as bad with your next pregnancy. Mine hardly showed up at all this time and there were no new ones. Phew!
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